My Boring life

Ugh

2006-03-09T16:46:00.000-08:00

This seriously sucks. My eyes burn from all the crying I've done. Me and Chris got to alking about College and stuff, and I know it's a really long time away, but..Idk He was sayin he was gonna stay here but I mean I wanna go to college and actually do something with my life. But then if we break up..It was all for nothin!!!!!!!! I have fought so hard to keep people from breakin us up.. My mom, people at school, other girls, The whole hope thing, the whole jacob thing, and so much more that I cant even think of! I am so stressed out..Its not even funny. Gah.. He told I have to decide but...I Dont wanna make this decision!! I told him that I could go to Marshall and he said that we can drive back and forth EVERYDAY.. U know how much gas that is AND time? I cant handle that...and he wants to stay here with his dad and I mean.. Idk I am so confused. Why cant he help me with this? He wants me to completely move my schedule around his and I mean..Cant he moves his too so they'll both work? I dont know..I'm tryin not to think about it, ya know? But then it keeps comin up..and I was willing to go through EVERYTHING for him, my mom practically hates me over that. I dont know, I'm just gonna go think and cry some more I guess since its really hard to stop at the moment.

<3 Cece

Wow...

2006-02-26T09:53:00.000-08:00

Last Night was GREAT!! Me and Chris got to go to the mall. I had so much fun. But we also had fun in another way ;) I wont get into detail, but we've went about as far as we could w/o fuckin, haha. I was on the rag, or we would've. I mean, we could've, but that would've been gross. lol. But then we walked around, and laid on the couches for a while and made out. Then we stood outside for a while and I almost fell asleep on him. I had so much fun. I couldnt ask for a better boyfriend.

I LOVE CHRIS LEFTWICH!!!!!

<3
Cece

U know...

2006-02-11T16:49:00.000-08:00

People suck...

They seriously do.

Thats all I really wanted to say...I'm really not much of a peoples person.

<3
Cece

Ugh

2006-01-18T14:59:00.000-08:00

This has been a complicated few weeks. Everyone hates eachother and nothing is going right, except for me and chris. Well, Brittany's boyfriend hates me now obviously, and as much as I hate to say it, fuck him. He can hate me all he wants. It's like I told him, it doesn't hurt my feelings any. N e ways, Long week. Ugh, I hate updating this thing. I gave Bob a dress for military ball. Hopefully she finds shoes for it and everything works out right.

Well in better news, me and Chris are doing perfect. I'm perfectly in love with him, especially since our anniversery is so close. He claims he's gonna get me somethin for valentine's this year, and even tho he probably won't that's ok. I love him, not the material things he buys me.

<3>

Cece

How Embarrasing

2006-01-09T17:33:00.000-08:00

Lunch was so...awful, as well as the rest of the day. Me and Chris got into it...ugh, I hate fighting with him. We really don't fight that much, but lately we have been ugh! It's so stressful. My hair is fallin out over this I swear. I love him but Idk what to do..Idw talk about it so I'll post later.

Family Sucks

2006-01-02T13:28:00.000-08:00

God I fuckin Hate Jamie!! He's so irritating and I haven't even done n e thing to him!! Mom and Jamie have been arguin...Ugh What Fun!! :) Note the Sarcasm. God I hope they break up, Jamie has it out for me. N e ways, I'll update later, I don't feel like typing all of this right now!

Christmas was great...

2005-12-28T07:14:00.000-08:00

I got all kinds of stuff. Mostly art stuff, but I got an mp3, clothes, games, and a brand new computer for my house! Woo! See, now I can actually update this thing more often. Go Me!! Chris got me a really pretty pair of rose earrings for christmas. I feel bad cuz I got him a Trigun Manga..:/ Oh well...he says he likes it. Man, I'm sick today. I feel like shit. I hope i get better before Saturday if I get to go. That wouldn't be a very good impression on Chris's dad if I'm sick! Ugh! I really hope I get to go...I never get to do n e thing with him and I really want it to be special...I mean He's turning 16! I hope Bob and John are going. I mean, I hate using them like that, but everyone knows how my mom is about Chris and I'd never get to go then!! Oh well. I guess I better go.

--Cece

Gah...been a while

2005-12-16T04:36:00.000-08:00

Wow....its been a while since I've updated. Well, theres been a lot going on. Brittany is no longer dating Jacob, but shes is dating John Hopkins. I wonder if bob is going to school today? Oh well. Wow...I have no idea what to put on here. I'm still dating Chris and OH I love him more than ever. Everything that has happened in the past is completely forgotten. I just absolutely love him, and that will never ever change. It almost our anniversery....2 years next month on the 27th. *Ish so happy* My mom knows about him now. She hasn't really accepted it, shes more just gave up on telling me not to date him. Hes mine, so everyone who has a problem can back off!! *Brrar* Bob and John are so cute together ^.^ My mom says she thinks shes knows John from somewhere, she just wasn't sure where. I told her she's probably seen him at the mall. We went bowling for nick's b-day and that's where she met him. I hope they last as long as me and Chris have and will ^.^ Well I better go I'm just rambling.

--::.:Cece:.::

Omg, I'm at school!! shame shame

2005-09-29T07:26:00.000-07:00

I haven't updated in so long, but I have a LOT to say!! Jacob and bob are talking to me now *yaay!!* and we're goin to ren fair saturday. Chris is in so much shit now, especially since he ran his bill up so high. That was my fault tho, even tho he won't admit it. We're suppose to go out to dinner sometime but i don't know when, but i guess when ever I get a chance we'll go.

We're skippin lunch today, just not tellin devone. We never get any time alone together, and it sucks, every time we're around eachother, some of are friends are there and yea. So, Channel one keeps playin "Smells like Teen Spirit" By Nirvana. They've already played it twice, and thats a good song, but I like better. Well anyways, I gotta go. I'll update more when I get home. The bell's about to ring!!

Love,
Cece

Sigh...

2005-09-20T12:25:00.000-07:00

Ya know....I have no friends n e more. Ever since Bob has started hangin around Jacob...she's been ignoring me...and I don't like it...especially now that shes dating him. Don't get me wrong, I love them both, and i'm happy for them, but I don't wanna be left out just b/c they have eachother now. *sigh* Oh well, I'll get use to it I guess. Well n e ways, I g2g, I'll write more lata.

_x_Cece_x_

2005-06-29T04:11:00.000-07:00

God, My summer SUX!! My summer always sux. All i ever do is lay around and draw anymore.. I don't talk to pretty much anyone. *Grr*! I miss Chris more than ever lately. I need to see him before school starts again..Thats so long not to see someone. God I wish our parents weren't so weird like this..we're the only people I know who don't get to see eachother outside of school. I just need to figure things out..soon enough my mom is gonna find out anyways.

2005-05-15T08:12:00.000-07:00

Well, today, I changed my layout. I think it's really pretty. I have links to my posts and everything, it's awesome. I haven't updated this thing in a LONG time, since my internet has been down. I don't think i'll ever get it fixed. Well, anyways, I'ma go. I'll update at a better time!!

Love,

x-_Cece_-x

About Me

2005-03-03T04:37:00.000-08:00

.x//B a s i c s\\x.
Name: Cece
Location: Pax wv
Occupation: ...
Height: 5'5
Eye color: Hazel
Hair color: dark brown.
x//C u r r e n t . .\\x.
attire: Red and black shirt and black jeans
make-up: eyeliner
taste: nothing
screen name: __broken_beauty__
hairstyle: Normal
annoyance: my brother..
finger nail color: uhhh Black
smell: nothin
longing: i want my OC episode I've been waiting 4 2 come on!! GRR!!
thing I ought to be doing: nuthin
background picture: Chii from Chobits sitting in a shirt
book: nothing
in stereo: some mix cd
dvd/video in player: My CD
color of toenails: Red
refreshment: nothing
worry: nothing
x//L a s t .x. P e r s o n\\x.
You touched? My mom
You talked to? My Mom
You hugged? Uhh...bob
You instant messaged? Bob
You kissed? Chris
You yelled at? My brother
Who broke your heart? Myself..
x//F a v o r i t e\\x.
Food: chinese..
Drink: Dr. Pepper or Coke
Color: Gray, Black, silver, blue, and red
Shoes: My Boots!!
Candy: anything sour
Animals: Tigers..Wolves.. and Dogs..
TV Show: the OC
Movie: The exorcist: The beginning
x//A r e .x. Y o u\\x.
Understanding? yea
Open-minded? yea
Arrogant? ..idk
Insecure? yeah always
Interesting? no
Hungry? no
Friendly? sometimes
Smart? hell no
Moody? very VERY badly
Childish? Lol No
Independent? Yes Very
Hard working? no
Organized? ur funny!! no
Healthy? Guess so
Emotionally stable? no
Shy? Not Really
Difficult? Idk
Attractive? *lmfao* Ur Hilarious!!
Bored easily? yes
Messy? yea
Thirsty? yea
Responsible? Sure?
Obsessed? Can be
Angry? not at the moment
Sad? not right now
Happy? guess so
Trusting? yea
Sick? yes
Talkative? yep
Original? Yes
Different? yeah
Reliable? yea
Content? Yup..
Optimistic? nope
Deep thinker? Yes.. all the time..
Self-disciplined? No Way
Sleepy? not very
Lonely? nopers..
x//O t h e r s\\x.
Age of first kiss: REAL kiss...13...kiss...5 :)
Number of people you've kissed: REAL...I have No idea.. kiss...even more clueless lol
French kissing is: GREAT
The worst kind of kiss is: The kind you expect, but never get.(stole that answer from someone else but..it was a good answer)
The best kisser you know: Uh..I've heard that it's harold lol
The worst kisser you know: I have NO idea
The celebrity you'd like to kiss: None celeb. crushes are stupid lol
Friend you would like to kiss: My Chris lol
Favorite movie kiss: Oh man..so so many!!
Do you kiss on the first date? If I like them.
Eyes open or closed? closed. I can't stand eyes open
Average number of kisses you get a day: LOTS!!
Ever kissed a friend's boyfriend or girlfriend? Yeah..
The last person you kissed: Chris
Best placed to be kissed: neck or chest!!
Have you kissed someone of the same sex? Yes..!!
What about the opposite sex? uhh yeah duh.
Do you consider kissing cheating? Hell yea
The longest you've gone without a kiss: 2 months..*dies* lol
The kiss you regret most is: the one with my friends boyfriend.
Kissing in public is: fun!
Tongue rings are: kinda gross..
Two girls kissing is: AWESOME!! Well..2 me..
Two guys kissing is: disgusting..

5 day weekend??

2005-03-01T15:40:00.000-08:00

Ugh, 2 days without school and I'm BORED OUTTA MY MIND!! I swear if I don't get up outta this house I'm gonna lose it!! AGH!! Oh well. So, whats happening in my life, you ask?? Nothing, but Chris is considering movin in w/ his Grandma..Him and his dad got into, kinda my fault..He was on the phone and his dad doesn't like my anyways.. Yea He liked me til he found out my secret..lol..that I'm bisexual!! *Gasp!!* Such a freakin' surprise!! Anyways, I'm bi but I'm only like 10% gay and 90% straight n e ways, so it doesn't matter. Man I might change my Layout again..I like this one and all but I want a different one..a more..me one.. but oh well. I might go and save a couple w/o actually putting them up yet. Well, I'm gonna go, cuz my life is boring and..well..yea thats it.