This seriously sucks. My eyes burn from all the crying I've done. Me and Chris got to alking about College and stuff, and I know it's a really long time away, but..Idk He was sayin he was gonna stay here but I mean I wanna go to college and actually do something with my life. But then if we break up..It was all for nothin!!!!!!!! I have fought so hard to keep people from breakin us up.. My mom, people at school, other girls, The whole hope thing, the whole jacob thing, and so much more that I cant even think of! I am so stressed out..Its not even funny. Gah.. He told I have to decide but...I Dont wanna make this decision!! I told him that I could go to Marshall and he said that we can drive back and forth EVERYDAY.. U know how much gas that is AND time? I cant handle that...and he wants to stay here with his dad and I mean.. Idk I am so confused. Why cant he help me with this? He wants me to completely move my schedule around his and I mean..Cant he moves his too so they'll both work? I dont know..I'm tryin not to think about it, ya know? But then it keeps comin up..and I was willing to go through EVERYTHING for him, my mom practically hates me over that. I dont know, I'm just gonna go think and cry some more I guess since its really hard to stop at the moment.

<3 Cece